Several times I’ve sparked an idea for a blog post. However, when I’ve sat down to write, the feeling has gone. Rather than forcing a post, I’ve walked away and left it behind. Well, now I thought I would take the time to sit down and write about what has happened in our family.
This summer has passed by very quickly. Each passing year, time seems to move faster. We’ve enjoyed our time at home swimming in our pool, playing in the yard, and working in the garden (well, mostly enjoyable :-)). We’ve also ventured out to explore nature and visit family and friends. Here are the children exploring a creek and looking for crayfish:
Preparing for Winter
Now why would I write in late August about preparing for winter? Because, over the last several weeks, our family has spent a fair amount of time stacking 16,000 pounds of firewood! Talk about some good exercise. Now, we did not cut and split most of it. Actually, almost all was purchased from someone who already cut and split it (the estimated weight is according to him). I only split a small amount of my own. The pictures below show you what 16,000 pounds or four cords of stacked wood looks like:
The “Because I’m Only Little” Song
Little Gracia seems to have quite an imagination. The other day, she started singing a song that she apparently made up on her own. The only lyric is “I don’t know what to do because I’m only little.” We’re not sure why she came up with that, but we thought it was cute nonetheless. The song has become somewhat contagious around our house since you could hear any one of us singing it at any given time. Here she is singing it, or at least one version of it (I apologize for the bad lighting):
We’ve had two major expenditures so far this year. We planned for one but not the other. The one we planned for was a new roof on our house. After 22 years, the original shingles were worn so we replaced them with new “30-year”(?) shingles. So far, they are holding up well.
The unplanned expenditure was a new vehicle. Our 2002 Honda Odyssey collided with a herd of deer one dark night on a back country road. No human was injured and the deer got up and walked away. Hopefully, he/she was OK. The children were upset because they saw the accident. We were able to drive home, however the damage was so extensive that the insurance company totaled the vehicle. The picture below does not really give justice to the extent of the damage. So, we purchased a 2009 Honda Odyssey. We like the Odyssey because they generally hold up really well – unless you hit a deer (or rather, a deer hits you).
So, how are we really doing?
Each passing year since Isaac’s death has been easier. This third summer has been quite enjoyable and a time of bonding for our family. We still have our issues as most families do, especially when you are around each other almost every day. We are still human beings struggling to walk out our faith and overcome our sinful tendencies. Though we experience happiness and joy (we laughed really hard just yesterday while we were together with friends), at the same there are still holes in our hearts. Every day we miss Isaac. Though we don’t sit around crying and depressed, it doesn’t mean that there isn’t pain and longing deep in our innermost being. But, if you ask me how I am and I reply “pretty well,” I am generally being truthful. I believe that I can only say that I am well because of my hope and trust in God. Just recently, Brenda said that she can now say Isaac’s name without crying. It can also be very difficult for some of us to look at pictures. That being said, and though my intent is not to cause pain, I recently rediscovered this picture from September 2006 that I forgot existed. It is now one of my favorites. What I see in this photo is a little boy appreciating the security of a mother’s deep love for him:
Anyway, I am closing for now. I hope to write more often in the future. I don’t have plans for any particular topics, but will probably write about our family happenings, our continuing journey with grief, and topics related to current events and God’s Word.
My hope is that God blesses you richly in your spirit as we wait for the glorious appearing of our savior, Jesus Christ. Even so, please come quickly!