We recently acquired a “teeter-totter go-round thingy” (my technical name) for amusement and exercise. The ride has two seats on opposing ends of a slightly curved bar which allows for the riders to alternate going up and down (the teeter-totter effect). The riders can also spin around in a circle, even at great speeds depending on the leg strength of the person initiating the spinning. Instead of you imagining what this may look like, you can see for yourself from the video below:
As I watched our children enjoy themselves playing on this toy, I began to draw parallels to our grief journey. Several people have asked me recently how we are doing. My response has been “up and down”. Some days we feel “up” and some days we feel “down”. The “downs” don’t seem to be quite as low as they used to be and we can rebound ourselves back into the “up” position, mainly through meditating on God’s Word and encouraging each other with His promises. However, we still struggle with reconciling His promises of protection to our circumstances. But again, I am looking at situations through my human eyes and not through my spiritual lenses. Lord, I believe; help thou my unbelief!
What about the “round and round” effect? At times, grief can leave you feeling like you are spinning out of control. You feel dizzy and nauseated. You want the ride to stop, but you have no control to stop it. If you stop holding on tightly and let go, you will fall and hurt yourself, possibly to great extent.
Let us hold fast the profession of our faith without wavering; (for he is faithful that promised;) (Heb 10:23)
Have your experienced these effects on your journey through tribulation?
In closing, a brother in Christ recently posted about “a glimpse of heaven” that he experienced. We recently had a similar experience in our backyard. As foreboding storm clouds rolled over us, an opening in the middle briefly appeared. Through the opening, sunlight reflected off the clouds creating a brilliant bright white glow that warmed out hearts. I was reminded that even though clouds from the storms of life might block our view of the Son, he is still here with us providing His guiding light.
Hide not thy face far from me; put not thy servant away in anger: thou hast been my help; leave me not, neither forsake me, O God of my salvation. (Psa 27:9)
…for he hath said, I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee. (Heb 13:5b)