But godliness with contentment is great gain. For we brought nothing into this world, and it is certain we can carry nothing out. And having food and raiment let us be therewith content. (1Ti 6:6-8)
But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith, Meekness, temperance: against such there is no law. (Gal 5:22-23)
And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus. (Php 4:7)
I did not expect to be content after my son tragically departed from this world. Perhaps this is the result of experiencing the emotions of joy and peace. How can I be joyful and peaceful after such a tragedy? Is it the fruit of the Holy Spirit?
Please allow me to qualify my statement. I have not been content through this entire journey, especially during the first several months (you can read our earlier blog postings to see). I don’t even expect myself or others to be content while grieving. I’m not sure this is “normal” or how long it will last. I do NOT want to discourage anyone who is discontent. But, today, I am content. I hope that by sharing why I believe that I am content will be helpful to others.
When I examine this situation through the eternal perspective, I understand that Isaac is not dead but is alive. He is more alive than he ever was here on earth! He is free from his burdens and experiencing the joys of heaven created by God. I believe that he has been with Jesus (see 2Co 5:6-8). When I meditate on these eternal truths, I am greatly comforted and peaceful. I understand that we are just temporarily separated from being with him (assuming that we will know each other in heaven). While a part of our hearts has been taken away, it is difficult for us because we are still here on earth (and who could argue that the world situation is not getting worse – come soon Lord Jesus!).
Also, I am content because I know that God has been with us through this journey. Time and again, He has provided people to speak words of encouragement and truth and to demonstrate acts of grace and mercy. He has protected our family. He has moved in people to provide for our material needs. Unless the Lord leads otherwise, I believe that where we live, work and fellowship are all within His will. I have not been this content in these areas for quite a while (how I must remember this when the trials come again!).
I hope by sharing that I have helped you in some way. Please know that I believe that this is only given to me by God. In my natural self (my flesh), I am generally discontent. I still struggle with reconciling God’s will with the circumstances of Isaac’s death. I am thankful for the books of Job and Psalms that provide comfort, clarity and an understanding of spiritual activities. While I continue to wait on God, I find contentment in knowing that He is the all-powerful, all-knowing Creator and Sustainer of this world. Even though evil has its reign here on earth, God Almighty is in control.
I hope that you find contentment in your relationship with our Heavenly Father through His son, Jesus Christ.