It is almost difficult to believe that this past Tuesday marked six months since Isaac passed away. After about the first month, any date with 18 or any Mondays seemed no longer distinguishable from any other days. Everyday we seem to miss Isaac just as much and remember the day that he left this earth.
Ever since I began to hear Laura Story’s beautiful and poignant song “Blessings”, I have found the tune and lyrics to be rolling through my mind at any given time. One of the first times that I really comprehended the meaning of the song is when my cousin Donald posted a YouTube video in a comment to the post titled “Fellowship of Suffering”.
How can trials of this life be blessings and God’s mercies in disguise? I believe it is possible because these trials purify our hearts and draw us closer to God, if we respond appropriately to them. As we groan in our hearts towards our Heavenly Father and struggle to find sufficient words to express our emotions, we find a new intimacy with Him. These prayers turn us to our Heavenly Father for comfort and strength and set our hearts on heavenly matters. The alternative would be that we become so bitter through trials that we seek comfort in worldly pleasures and harden our hearts toward God.
Some days we find it difficult to see the “good” in what happened to us. (Death is not “good” on the surface, for it was an enemy that Christ Jesus conquered. Someday the defeat of that enemy will be completely realized on this world, but for the time being its defeat is only evident on the “other side”.) We experience pain because a piece of our heart has been ripped away. That pain is present no matter what we meditate upon. But we can experience joy and peace if we shift our focus from ourselves to the promises of God and towards others. I don’t believe this is denying or “stuffing” our pain, but rather turning our pain into productive and fruitful energy.
So, by allowing these trials in our lives, is God blessing us and showing us mercy by providing the opportunity to draw closer to Him so that we can more fully know and enjoy Him in the present reality and in eternity?
Who is a God like unto thee, that pardoneth iniquity, and passeth by the transgression of the remnant of his heritage? he retaineth not his anger for ever, because he delighteth in mercy. He will turn again, he will have compassion upon us; he will subdue our iniquities; and thou wilt cast all their sins into the depths of the sea. Thou wilt perform the truth to Jacob, and the mercy to Abraham, which thou hast sworn unto our fathers from the days of old. (Mic 7:18-20)
Perhaps it would be better just to let the song’s author and others speak for themselves. This video can be found on Laura Story’s Website. I encourage you to view it and read the testimonies of others who have been “blessed” by clicking here.