Wherein ye greatly rejoice, though now for a season, if need be, ye are in heaviness through manifold temptations: That the trial of your faith, being much more precious than of gold that perisheth, though it be tried with fire, might be found unto praise and honour and glory at the appearing of Jesus Christ: (1Pe 1:6-7)
Beloved, think it not strange concerning the fiery trial which is to try you, as though some strange thing happened unto you: But rejoice, inasmuch as ye are partakers of Christ’s sufferings; that, when his glory shall be revealed, ye may be glad also with exceeding joy. (1Pe 4:12-13)
We took a trip to the mountains, hoping for some family quiet time away from the responsibilities of home and work. It has been a difficult trip for me, as the silence revealed the depths of my heart. The process has been painful, especially since I had unknowingly allowed these sinful attitudes to grow into strongholds, almost unaware that they were occurring. I was resistant at first but am thankful that God was faithful to reveal these to me so that I would not stray further from Him. I thank my brother D for the warning (although I did not initially see what he felt) and my brother T for his God-inspired prayer, support and directness. The last few days I have felt much freer.
I have been challenged and encouraged by reading 1 John. I am reading a chapter or two a day from this book for the month of August. I am challenged to walk in the light and to not sin. I am also challenged to walk under the guidance and power of the Holy Spirit, obeying the words of Christ, and not trying to obey my Lord through my own flesh. I am finding that I don’t have the strength in myself to love as Christ loves. This power must come from deep within, from the Spirit of God that resides in me as a born-again believer. This is a time of refining for me as I have trusted in myself and not wholly upon the Lord.
I find rejoicing and peace thinking about Isaac in heaven. I am comforted to know that he is free from this cursed world and experiencing joy beyond my imagination. I am letting go and learning to trust God from the depths of my soul. I still cry out “why?”, but I am immediately brought to a state of submission to my loving Heavenly Father, trusting in His abundant grace and mercy. This has not been easy and I feel some shame that I still struggle, but again I am thankful that God is faithful to me to reveal himself in my times of distress. I am learning that God is God and I cannot totally comprehend Him, for He says:
For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the LORD. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts. (Isa 55:8-9)
I hope to share some more about our trip and some pictures in a future post, along with some interesting and encouraging books I’ve been reading (secondary to the Bible of course!). Did you see the picture of our cabin “friend” in Isabella’s newsletter?
I hope that in some way my thoughts have encouraged and blessed you in the Lord.
I pray for your peace from God,