Tuesday was my first day back to work. Difficult may be the best word to describe the experience of the day. As we prayed before I left, our circle was missing one key person. When I pulled out of the driveway onto the road, the goodbyes from the front porch were a little quieter. I cried almost the entire drive into work. It felt strange walking into my office since when I last left it my life was “normal.” Now I walked into it a different person. I wept in the middle of a meeting with someone just because something reminded me of Isaac. Most people were gracious and I suspect some were uncomfortable, not really knowing what to say to me. I appreciated the unexpected encouragement from one of my coworkers. When I checked in with Brenda, she was feeling lonely even in the midst of managing our three children. Even though we are moving forward and we love each other just as much, we miss Isaac and feel like a big part of our heart has been ripped out. Anyway, I was exhausted when I got home and we all went to bed early. We remain thankful for the graciousness extended towards us from my employer. We are taking everything one day at a time.
Still trusting Him,