More Firsts

02 Jun

Tuesday was my first day back to work.  Difficult may be the best word to describe the experience of the day.  As we prayed before I left, our circle was missing one key person.  When I pulled out of the driveway onto the road, the goodbyes from the front porch were a little quieter.  I cried almost the entire drive into work.  It felt strange walking into my office since when I last left it my life was “normal.”  Now I walked into it a different person.  I wept in the middle of a meeting with someone just because something reminded me of Isaac.  Most people were gracious and I suspect some were uncomfortable, not really knowing what to say to me.  I appreciated the unexpected encouragement from one of my coworkers.  When I checked in with Brenda, she was feeling lonely even in the midst of managing our three children.  Even though we are moving forward and we love each other just as much, we miss Isaac and feel like a big part of our heart has been ripped out.  Anyway, I was exhausted when I got home and we all went to bed early.  We remain thankful for the graciousness extended towards us from my employer.  We are taking everything one day at a time.

Still trusting Him,




2 responses to “More Firsts

  1. Donald

    June 2, 2011 at 7:47 PM

    I’m glad that your company is being so gracious. I’ve been praying for all of you this week.

  2. Susie

    June 3, 2011 at 12:18 PM

    Thinking of you, Andy, Brenda, Belle, David, Gracia, often. Just stopping now to pray for you today. I know how hard it is when something is weighing heavy on your heart and mind. You can’t just “shake it off” but I am praying He gives you an extra measure of His peace today and strength to continue to live for Him.

    “And He said unto me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.”

    Love you,


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